Ichika uses her loss not to harden herself, but to reach out, desperate not to be swallowed by the silence of an empty house.
This psychological pressure caused Mafuyu to develop severe depression, resulting in a feeling of being "transparent" or having no genuine emotions of her own. She did not choose her life; she conformed to it until she disappeared. "I Don't Have a Mother Anymore... So" Seta Ichika - I Don-t Have A Mother Anymore- So...
Ichika cried then. Really cried—the kind of crying that came from somewhere deep and dark and lonely. She cried until her throat was raw and her father’s shirt was soaked. And when she finally stopped, she felt something she hadn’t felt since Tuesday: a tiny, fragile crack of light. Ichika uses her loss not to harden herself,
The crack happened on a Tuesday, during the afternoon thunderstorm. Her mother had been fine at breakfast—humming as she flipped eggs, brushing Ichika’s hair into two neat pigtails, tying them with small yellow ribbons that matched her raincoat. “Be careful on the way home,” her mother had said, kneeling down to zip the coat. “If it rains, don’t run. The ground gets slippery.” "I Don't Have a Mother Anymore